Not Easy

When I was young

I wanted to wear a white coat.

I would imagine myself in a lab

surrounded by test tubes.

I felt like I was

on the top of the world.

Whenever I heard,

“You can do it!”,

I believed I could.

 

Once I knew that most

didn’t want to see me rise,

once I heard people

praying for my downfall,

I wondered if a guy like me

in a world like this

could survive and make it.

 

Standing on the top of the world

isn’t easy.

Not with the doubt

screaming in my head.

 

B. F.

2019